after having that short conversation
i realised sth >.<
so the road towards freedom isnt as easy as we think it is
u got to fight hard for it, if u want it.
everything is in ur hands
if u want it, fight for it.

after listening to the storyteller, it really helps
sometimes i guess, all the unhappiness is caused by urself de
and sth that the storyteller said, makes a lot of sense to me
at least, it makes me ponder for a while
he said " if u want sth, fight for it. dont keep thinking of sth that u want but dont dare to fight for, cos it will only add to unwanted sadness. either u do sth to achieve it, or just stop thinking abt it"
PRECISELY. it makes a lot of sense, isnt it.
just like the famous chinese story abt a farmer who waits under a tree everyday, hoping that a rabbit will come and hit the tree and die. -.-
shou zhu dai tu, in chinese
it not only applies to ______, but also to everything else in life
as the chinese saying goes "thats no free dinner in the world"
u have to work for success URSELF

from today onwards, i will stop being that farmer who waits for things to come
i must do sth abt it, success wont just come to u naturally
lol suddenly got enlightened abt ________ and life after listening to the storyteller
THANKS STORYTELLER! for making me realise it was me who caused all my unhappiness all along. >.<

actually wanted to skip friday's hcl timed prac de
cos its like the express chinese ppl can go home
then we still got to stay back and do timed prac
UNFAIR! so we wanted to skip
then after agreeing that we skip as a class, i went out of class
and i was happily walking towards the gate when i saw
ZHANG LAO SHI WALKING TOWARDS MY DIRECTION WITH A PILE OF TIMED PRAC WS so i tried to hide behind xiangqin
but apparently, failed. -.-
so bo bian, went up to do timed prac lor
lame la, chen zhu ren already let us do before some of the qns liao
the timed prac is last yr's olvl paper
which is a lot easier than bp's killer paper -.-

then while doing, cai lao shi came in and talked abt the shanghai trip
and she said the hsk centre had given us 5 vacancies now
and each of us only have to pay $500 after subsidies.
which is way cheaper than the original price of $900 -.-
but dont think i can get the subsidy cos chen zhu ren said each student can only get subsidy for overseas trip once. and i've already gotten it for my vietnam trip
but who cares? its not the money that matters.
HAHA then i asked cai lao shi if i still need to fill in form
then she said need
but she ended with "although its first-come-first-serve, but i'll still give u the slot no matter what cos u've already confirmed with the hsk centre"
YAY! cos the shanghai trip is supposely in june de
but then due to the sze chuan earthquake, it is postponed to after olvls!
and to my surprise, baoqin said she want to go
so hope that tmr still got vacancy left for her bah :D
then got someone to pei wo le. YAY!





waiting for the story teller to start telling his story -.-

went to 4T2 for chinese just now
cos chen zhu ren went to china with the principal
to look for scholars i think?
then cai hong was mentioning sth abt
"if u all want to go njc nxt year, must work really hard cos nxt yr they will have the first batch of IP students too. so its more competitive. the IP students will take up abt 70% of the places which means that there is only 30% left for us. so if u want go njc, must work extra harder"
haix i think i should stop dreaming abt going to njc now.
think i should just aim for anderson jc bah?
but then its too far frm my hse -.-
lol clare says if want study arts and humanities, acjc is better
dunnoe leh.
i suck at maths and science
but i dont like to memorise things too
aiya dunoe la. dunoe if i should choose science stream or arts stream nxt yr
just in the midst of considering.
anyway ya, i think more or less, i've decided to go jc le.
since the adults are putting high hopes on us, we should show them the results
must show them that we're not stupid :)
wait, im NOT saying that going to poly means we are lousy or stupid
but its just that i've decided to go jc since they are expecting me to do so
so ya, hope i wont disappoint them at the end of the year.
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!
HOPE I CAN FIND THE MOTIVATION TO STUDY! :D

received the most dreaded prelims timetable today!
and i was highlighting that blue timetable with a blue highlighter (LOL)
then halfway through, i realised prelims start on 5 aug and end on 22 aug?
hmm forgot the last day of paper le. but i think its 22 bah?
dont care.
wow which means like 2 whole weeks of miserable mugging?
maybe after all the muggings, we can turn into mugs le.
LOL nvm i got weird sense of humour, i noe. =X
then i saw geog and lit paper 2 on same day, same time
so i asked fiona "eh two papers same time how to do? use left hand do lit, right hand do geog meh?"
then she went to ask mrs poh
and mrs poh say "i will go ask the teacher"
and after a while, i realised its MY OWN MISTAKE
cos elective lit students only have lit paper 1
lit paper 2 is only for full lit students a.k.a history students
LOL then mrs poh showed me the -.- face and said "minus 10 marks frm ur test"
HAHA she can be cute sometimes :D

anyway i was asking 6P girls if they are going to the movie this sat
then yinshuen said she's not going
huiyi said their prelims start on 28 july. so cant go
then yunting went to shanghai
so i decided to skip the movie too
since no one pei wo
and after looking at the confirmed list of ppl going, i realised there is NO GIRLS!
so ya, not going bah :)
i cant help but think im stupid
cos its like most of my 6P classmates are frm IP so which means
THEY DONT HAVE OLVL!
no wonder they can play and play la -.-
then the stupid me got to study and study everytime
haix. different ppl got different brains
im already stupid way back in primary school
what to do?
who ask me to end up in a class of genius ppl? -.-
ppl like yunting, haix play and play still become ZHENGHUA TOP PUPIL :(
if only i have their 0.001% of brain cells

nvm. dunoe why ysd i just randomly mentioned abt prom night while smsing that noob jos
then i realise boys really dont care abt prom de lor
not like girls.
girls fancy prom becos they can like dress up themselves and look nice
but boys just dont really care
and i think jos will just end up in prom with a t-shirt and jeans.
LOL he will look stupid then. -.-
ok joking, if not later someone will come and kill me =X
then after that, i want to concentrate on doing my compo
so i smsed "good bye noob!"
LOL and i was expecting an irritated reply like "wth" or sth like that
which is quite typical and normal for jos
but surprisingly, i received a reply that says "LOL good bye pro"
WOW got ppl say i pro?
whatever la, i noe its in the sarcastic tone anyway.
and i had fun chatting with BF ysd night!
new juicy gossips
and she seems excited and eager to noe
so we ended up chatting on phone instead
haha weird right, why my BF is a "she"
becos she's XUANNY! of course its a "she" la -.-
lame....

ok shall not add on to the coldness now.
since its raining outside and its COLD!
whatever, i think im a bit too crappy today
and i got really weird sense of humour
haha good bye! :D

saw this test somewhere else
so decided to post it here xD

The Banana Test

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals.
King Kong, an Ape, an Orangutan and a Monkey pass by.
They decide to compete to see who is the fastest to get a banana off the tree.
Who do you guess will win?
Your answer will reflect your personality.
Think carefully . . . Try and answer within 30 seconds

Decided?

here's the answer!

If your answer is:

Orangutan = you’re sick

Ape = you need a break

Monkey = worse, you suppose to be in the hospital right now..

King Kong = I think you better take 1 year leave…

Why?! ????

A Coconut tree doesn’t have bananas!

Obviously you’re stressed and overworked.
Take some time off and relax!

LOL i think im kind of stupid + blur
cos i actually choose MONKEY as my answer -.-
without realising that a coconut tree cnt have banana!
HAHA! =D
anyone spot the mistake?

wth of all ppl, why must it be HER!!!!!!!
forget it. -.-
think i wont be blogging that often now le.
and anyway there's nth to blog abt too. =X
ok basically, i type this just becos of the sake of posting.
LOL if not later someone will come and boast abt his imba blog -.-
yes, jos, its you. zzz


oops i think i've been checking my friendster and email too often these few days =X

received class photos ysd
argh but the photos arent nice all all :(
forget it
i shall not post one of the informal
cos i think it sucks a lot
LOL



dunnoe why this year de class photos so plain
and they nvr even edit the background la
still prefer the old ones
as in sec 1 to 3 de
at least the pics got nice background behind -.-

argh we were told only TODAY that tmr's timed prac will be on rivers
and its supposed to be a test -.-
unfair, other classes knew it last week
but we were only told today.
haix nvm shall slack a bit before mugging later
guess more than half of my brain cells will be dead by the time i finish mugging geog later
so many things to memorise la!
hope i wont wake up tmr morning with a blank mind zzz
nvm, i shall be a good girl and start mugging geog :D
oh and speaking of test, when's our lit test arh?
or its supposed to be during nxt week's timed prac?
argh sooner or later, i have to dump all the rivers stuff away and start mugging on
montag, clarisse, mildred, captain beatty, faber and etc. -.-
LIFE AS A STUDENT IS JUST SO BORING!!!!

110 more days to olvl!
31 more days to prelims!
OMG its like competing against time la.
so many things to do, so many things to revise
and so many doubts to clarify
really hope i can get a satisfactory L1R5 for the upcoming prelims
but with our sch's exam standard, i doubt i can even reach my own target -.-
nvm, as the saying goes "if there's a will, there's a way"
if i put in more effort now, should be achieve-able de bah? :)

actually im getting sick of having to stuck halfway through timed prac or hwk becos of doubts
as in sometimes i feel motivated to study (rarely -.-)
then do TYS or assignment halfway, then meet with qns which i dunnoe how to do -.-
then must pause a while to think and think
im sick and tired of this
hope one day i can just do every single qn without any doubt
seriously, that will save a lot of time
and i can complete more things at one go
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!