i guess i have to be more optimistic sometimes :)
esp when there are so many ppl who actually cares abt me
was rather touched. ok ok i noe i get gan dong easily. >.<
i guess its almost time for us to peak le.
as in peak for olvls la.
mr lee said its like a curve. we will gradually start to peak during prelims and reach the maximum when its olvls
so ya, must strive hard to be on the top of the curve. or reach the peak. whatever la.
so far i guess my progress is only sth like the linear graph.
u noe, linear graph as in y=mx+c?
constant gradient. but slow and steady wins the race what.
nvm, if i can maintain it this way, its good enough le.
LOL
talking abt being optimistic, storyteller once told me "nothing is impossible. the impossible only takes longer"
i think this makes a lot of sense.
so ya, instead of crying over spill milk and complaining abt the impossible,
why not strive hard and make it becomes possible?
yea, thats the spirit! LOL


hmm friendship....
as i've said ysd, its really hard to find a friend whom u can get along very well with and can talk abt anything under the sun with
and im glad that i've found them. :)
i shall treasure the friendship that we have and make it last forever
good friends last a lifetime xD

oh ya before i forget, its now 55 days more to olvls!
apparently, u can just countdown the number of days left easily
cos they have pasted the notices outside the councillor room
so today, the notice is "55 days to O-lvls, 7 days to N-lvls"
arh there isnt much time left for us to slack le
and everyone else is already mugging hard
i guess its really time for me to pull up my socks le.
jiayou!
xuanny, must rmb our deal.
at least one chapter per day! ok? dont give up halfway! :D

i may seem cheerful and carefree to some of my friends
but that doesnt mean im a happy person
its just that i dont like to share my troubles with others
becos i will get really really emo if i were to talk to them abt all my unhappiness
and also, i dont want them to be worried
im just trying to be strong, to be normal and look happy
but actually, im not. >.<
and sometimes i just keep everything to myself until its too much a burden
and then i'll just break down sometimes at night
每当夜深人静时, 总会一个人胡思乱想, 然后把自己封闭起来, 想着想着就会不知不觉地觉得自己其实很孤单
sometimes i just wish there is someone beside me everytime i feel like breaking down
but luckily, i have dear xuanny and storyteller with me
i noe sometimes i'll just sms weird sms when im emo
and i'll just spam abt all my unhappiness
i noe sometimes its hard to reply such smses
but im glad that dear xuanny always find it a point to reply my weird sms
and sometimes talking to storyteller do helps
i mean he can say a lot of profound words which make a lot of sense
and it can really cheer u up sometimes

aiya dunnoe why, i just feel abit sentimental now
but im just glad that whenever i have problems, there is always someone there who is willing to be my listening ears
and i just realised boys can make good listeners too
i mean last time i used to talk abt all my unhappiness with my gor
and now im kind of used to sharing them with storyteller
but no matter what, xuanny is still on the top of my list!
u noe, its really hard to find a friend who shares the same thoughts as u and who is able to cheer u up when u are unhappy
and im glad that i've found them.
THANKS, XUANNY!
u've always been a wonderful bf to me
and i really hope our friendship will last
even after we've graduated from bp and had gone our separate ways :)

oh ya and xuanny, im not at all jealous abt u two-timing at the same time
becos i noe u treat us differently
LOL bf and dear got double meaning de :D

ok i guess i shall stop being emo now
anyway got back emaths paper1, eng paper2, geog paper2 and ss today
on the whole, i guess the results are not very satisfactory bah
cos didnt reach my target :(
but im glad that i didnt really screw up my human geog as much as i thought i did
seriously, how can u expect a good grade when u leave the whole of the evaluation qn worth 8 marks blank? ya poor time management, i noe. -.-
im just lucky that i did relatively well for the first qn, was quite surprised when i saw my marks.
21/25 for question 1. i guess it was one of the few good attempts bah?
cos i dont really score very well for geog de. >.<
so heng arh, question 1 helps me in maintaining a decent grade for human geog
since i screwed up question 2 totally, with the whole 8 marks gone.
and some little errors here and there
cant blame me what, no time to finish so i just literally rush through question 2
its already lucky that i didnt get a single digit for that qn

if not for the poor time management this time, i guess i could have done much much better for prelims. its really demoralising to see terrible results when u noe that u can actually do much better than it, if not for the careless mistakes and poor time management. :/

ok so we keep changing our plan
and in the end, i went to far east ysd with kaijun
just walked and walked around far east lor
kaijun wanted to buy shoes but cant seem to find one that she likes and of course, got her size de
so ya we just walked and walked without buying anything =X
then we went to ngee ann city
had some food there :)
then we bought durian pancakes from 4 seasons durian :D
the pancakes are very nice. i like them! <3
haha
chatted quite a lot with her these few days
esp since i went out with her on both fri and sat.

then was a bit emo ysd night
sometimes i cant help but think that im just a spare tyre in ur heart
not a friend, but just a spare tyre
:(

haha just now went to lot 1 with kaijun
met her at 10.30 after her bio paper
went to mac to slack for a while
then walk around lot 1, then go pasta mania for lunch :D
after that went back to mac to do the sort-of art and craft thing
dont know whats that called.
lol then went to MOF to have ice cream!
its nice! xD
haha then went to masar malam walk walk
OMG then i paised myself there >.<
nvm better dont talk abt it

YAY and tmr im going to AMK Hub again with kaijun, xiangqin and huilin
going to try new york new york
then movie + shopping :D
going to slack a bit this weekend
before dying a horrible death nxt week
cos nxt week getting back papers -.-
HAIX!

YIPEE!
exams are officially over!
(for the physical science students only)
haha since they have bio paper 1 tmr :)
as for celebration, maybe going out with kaijun, huilin and xiangqin on sat bah?
watch movie and seoul garden or sth?
havent decide =X
omg i sound like a glutton now.
seoul garden on sat (not confirmed yet) and SAKURA with dear xuanny and storyteller!
haha lets eat till they bankrupt! :D

oh ya and i finally tried subway
but didnt eat the sandwich cos i think its seriously too big for my consumption
u noe i eat very little de mah =X
ok sounds ironic since im going for like 2 buffet lunch (seoul garden and sakura)
who cares la! i happy can le. LOL
then in the end, i bought the cookies!
since a lot of ppl said the cookies are nice
and OMG I THINK THE COOKIES ARE SUPER NICE LA
cos i like those soft soft cookies
dont know why. i just prefer soft cookies than crispy ones.
weird >.<

had hcl paper 1 and human geog today
almost died while writing >.<
imagine writting pages and pages of essays for 2 hrs
then start writting long answers and evaluation qn essays again after a 1hr break
its tiring la, hand very suan after writting
LOL
actually i wasnt in a good mood after geog paper
cos human geog leh, its supposed to be easy de (i think la)
cos quite easy to get A1
but then i dont have time to finish la!
seriously screwed up the last evaluation qn which is worth a bloody 8 marks
ok not just me, many ppl cant finish their geog too
but aiya, i just feel angry for not being able to complete the paper
its poor time management, i think
since i always write a lot for qn1 and literally rush and scribble through for qn2
ya thats what happen to me for geog paper everytime
nvm, i think im going to start scribbling for qn1 for olvls now
as in just write faster a bit bah, hope can finish the whole paper by time. >.<

SIAN LA! i dont want to get back results!!!!!!!!
but on a happier note, i think hcl paper 1 is quite manageable.
except that the bao zhang bao dao topic is abit "cold"
its sth abt scholarships de
not very hard nor very easy to write
so i'll take it as average bah.
hope can do well :D

ok and im kind of in a holiday mood now
since prelims is sort of over le
cos today left chem paper 1 then no more le
just MCQs only mah, actually i dont feel like studying le
kind of lose momentum and motivation to study now
esp when i think of how i screwed up my prelims this time round
luckily our batch dont have the first 3 mths thing
if not i think i'll most probably end up in some dont-know-what-sch
based on my prelims results, since i think i screwed them all up >.<
nvm, MUST JIAYOU FOR OLVLS!
afterall, thats the most important thing that we have now.
but it also means the end of our secondary school life
ah i will definitely miss BP. the friends, the teachers, guides and many more.

quote frm fahrenheit 451,
the all-time favourite quote : "are u happy?"
NOT! seriously, im not happy at all.
feel rather demoralised, esp after emaths and amaths paper 2
its HARD! do-able but difficult!
and i just feel angry with myself whenever i am stuck halfway through the papers
i admit i used to be not very hardworking, or perhaps just talking exams lightly
but i swear i really mug very hard for this prelims ok?
and in the end, hard work just doesnt pay off.
why must they set those killer papers?
as in it will only demoralise students more.
afterall olvl standard is like way below sch standard la.
>.<
and i dont even want to get back my results now.
cos i dont want to see results that are of no difference to the past few exams, or worse still, lousier
tell me, study so hard for what?
in the end, hard work doesnt even pay off and the results are still like ****

anyway xuanny and i have made a deal
we will study mugging harder for olvls
after prelims, im gonna study and study and study
then do practices and more practices
just hope that hard work will really pay off this time round.
if not can just go bang wall le la. -.-

on a happier note, im super excited abt the sept holiday
not becos i have more time to mug
but becos IM GOING SAKURA WITH XUANNY AND STORYTELLER!
SAKURA!!!!
lol looking forward to it, and i noe xuanny feels the same way too :D
and that day during tuition, my tutor said sth quite meaningful
she told me that studying is not everything in life
I AGREE!
and she said its becos singapore focus alot on the university cert
thats why study seems impt
in other words, if not for the cert, ppl should just socialise more and enjoy life better
thats what she said.
afterall when u graduate, the cert will only secure u ur first job but it doesnt gurantee u a bright future or success
to succeed in life, u have to noe how to interact and communicate with ppl.
the society doesnt want muggers who only noe how to mug and produce results, but no life at all
the society wants ppl who are all-rounders, who can excel in both studies and CCA and communication.
AGREE TOTALLY LA!
and actually it was quite surprising that my tutor suddenly talked abt all these
haha cos we were talking abt JCs and the subject combinations
so she shared with me some of her sch experience and the pros and cons abt some subjects
which i think is really meaningful :)

i think nowadays i've been brainwashed by so many ppl
ok not exactly brainwash, but just gain enlightenment
and it just feels good to noe that there are friends who actually care for me when im emo-ing
LOL

YAY i've survived 1 week of prelims
so left with emaths paper2, amaths paper2, human geog, hcl paper1, phy paper 1 and chem paper1 nxt week
and then its FREEDOM!
actually not, since the big Os havent even started yet.

and so far, i think the prelims are still quite ok
no major screwed up bah?
at least i did complete every single qn for phy ok?
looking back at my sec3 phy exam papers, i realised more than 50% of the qns are left blank
LOL! no wonder i always fail last time. >.<
haha but dont think olvl phy will be very difficult bah
judging from the tys standard :D
and after olvls, i dont think i will have the interest to touch phy again
not planning to do alvls phy nxt yr -.-
that means i have to endure phy for a few more mths then i can say good bye to it forever !
YAY =D
cant blame me, i dont have the interest for phy since sec 1
and its ironic that i choose phy instead of bio in sec 2 when i hate phy
but nvm, even since i started to mug for phy in june, i think im starting to like phy le.
well i hope its not too late, since the big Os havent started. :)
to do well in a subject, you have to like the subject first.
so from now onwards, im not going to hate phy anymore!
hahaha...

LOL i think i am becoming more and more sotong (a.k.a blur) nowadays
and i even made dear xuanny super worried abt me
becos of my blur-ness
really feel damn stupid now. >.<
argh LOL xuanny, and i feel bad for making u worried abt me
and im touched when i saw ur msg this morning
cos u even ask someone to check the website for u when u cant be online
all because of my ultra blurness
ok la, nxt time i promise u i will open eyes big big and highlight the whole post before reading de.
LOL in the first place, why did i make that mistake ysd?
guess im either too blur or im just being paranoid.
once again, SORRY XUANNY!
AND THANKS FOR BEING CONCERNED ABT ME YSD
*very touched* =X