yay im happy! :D
cos i found the exact "ideal course" that i always wanted already.
http://www.nbs.ntu.edu.sg/undergrad/BUS/Prog_Struct/Bus_Prog_Struct.asp
now im following my cousin's path, just that the area of specialisation is different.
ok thats provided IF i CAN get into NTU business -.-
which sounds a bit mission impossible given my current grades, cos it is really a very well sought-after course that many people are aiming for -.-
nvm i shall work hard towards this goal :)
because thats why i chose to enter JC at the start of this year, instead of going to NP tourism and hospitality management

i even put motivational quotes on my study table to motivate myself
LOL!
so i shall stare at that sheet of paper (with the quotes and NTU business cut-off point) whenever im having doubts about whether i can make it or not >.<
i can imagine how hard it will be to conquer Alevels next year
because during the promos period, a few of us already cannot stand the stress and even broke down a few times. T_T
so imagine Alevels ...... OMG !
i rmb i always feel very emo during promos period.
and i even send emo msg to huilin, telling her that i feel like giving up
LOL but luckily, i managed to overcome everything with the help of friends' encouragements :)
i should really thank huilin for "bringing me back to reality" whenever i send her emo msg
it's like her replies will always make me feel encouraged and it's good to know that ur friends do support u no matter how lousy ur grades may be
so we shall continue to support and encourage each other and overcome the big As together !
B.I.P ! <3

AND I MUST WORK VERY HARD ON MY CHEM NOW!!!
i dont want to fail anymore -.-

yay! after many failed attempts to confirm a date where everyone is free, B.I.P's bbq date is finally fixed! LOL.
and it's TOMORROW ! :D
and this shall be the funniest bbq i've ever attended.
cos it's only like 5 of us? LOL!
but huilin's mum is so nice lah! she alr help us buy all the food needed AND she's cooking curry tmr! THANKS AUNTY! (omg i just ate curry ysd, but who cares! LOL tmr eat again bah.)
eh xiangqin, must finish all the curry arh! cos u order that dish de. :)

and if anyone is wondering what B.I.P stands for...


this is the answer!
LOL yes, B.I.P stands for bananas in pyjamas!
it all started with some lame group project that we have to do during sec 2.
then i rmb each group has to decide on a grp name.
then i just randomly say B.I.P and *tada* we're stuck with this name until now.
LOL! :D
but i think B.I.P sounds cute. haha.
and maybe next time we shall organise a B.I.P gathering with a theme
and guess what? i shall make everyone wear pyjamas!
LOL dress code that matches our clique name. COOL! :)

really hope we can be good friends forever.
cos they are the ones who made my BP life more enjoyable with all the childish acts.
LOL!
eh xiangqin, if u are reading this.... grow up ok! hahahaha!
next year 18 years old alr, must be more matured. XD

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

i'll be going out soon for family lunch
and then going for family gathering later at evening again
LOL my usual christmas "celebration"
it had been this way ever since i was young :)
cos christmas also happens to be my cousin's bday
so happy 22nd birthday, cousin!
although i dont think u will be reading this. haha!

enjoy ur holiday, people!
cos next year will be real hectic.
so we shall play as much as we can now.
LOL.
but dont lose the momentum to study also :)
and once again, merry christmas ^^
haha.

yesterday i was thinking of sth....
when i realised
my circle of friends has decreased.
i guess its because i've began to build some sort of a wall around me and prevent certain people from entering my social circle >.<
dont ask me why.
but i just lost the trust somehow.
it's hard to maintain a friendship when u have problem communicating with each other.
and after things that happened, u will realise who are ur real friends, and who are not.
知己不需要多，一两个就已足够
同样的，好朋友不需要多
一个真心的朋友胜过几个hi-bye friends :)
and i rely on my clique alot
and sometimes i will wonder, if one day we have a major quarrel, i will be left with no friends :(
LOL !

hmm some people believe that in this world, there is always a person who is ur guardian angel
the one who will be there for u everytime u are unhappy
the one who will somehow sense that something is wrong without u having to mention it
and if this is true, i believe i've found mine. :)
and im thankful that i have them to turn to when im unhappy.
they are my angels. my closest friends.
the only few people whom i allow to enter my "comfort zone"
haha :D

and this reminds me....
WE ARE HAVING B.I.P BBQ NEXT TUESDAY ^^
im not looking forward to the food, but more looking forward to meeting the people!
it had been quite some time since i last met chingching and yamyam :)

btw i think this song is very meaningful
at least the lyric is very true :)
你问在我心中是否还苦恼
那次受伤否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照我一切都好
一个人不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到对的人出现
在眼角
那次流过的泪让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要
是一种对照
谁愿意为了一份爱
付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱
海阔天高
oh～yeah～