finally.... there's another long weekend!
3 days for me to catch up with school work
im starting to get blur during lectures now, both econs and chem
econs was quite manageable all along, but not after costs of production
i find myself staring at the ppt slides blankly without understanding the concept....
chem was also quite ok, but not after atomic structure and chemical bonding
i cant do my tutorials! :(
i guess its all about reading the notes before lecture bah
its either im too busy or too lazy to read up on my notes before lecture nowadays...
thats why keep getting confused nowadays
WHERE HAVE ALL MY PASSION FOR STUDIES GONE TO????
at the start of the year, im really determined to do well and to excel
i read my lecture notes before attending lectures
and i do my tutorials happily
but since the start of term 2, the passion seems to have disappeared.
i stare blankly at the screen during lectures
i attend tutorials with half-completed work
i dont have much confidence during class tests anymore.

mid year is coming.
MUST BUCK UP LIAO!
cant afford to lag behind anymore.
i will constantly remind myself of the goal i set for myself at the start of the year
must chiong towards the finishing line!!!!!!!!!
and hope i wont drop dead even before reaching the finishing line.....
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! :D

life is getting more and more boring nowadays
its always studies studies and more studies
but thats jc life :(
and ms chan is so right.
why are we grumbling abt how tedious jc life is?
even if u choose a poly life, it doesnt mean life will be so much easier....
thats how life is in singapore.
face the reality.
in the end, its still the piece of stupid cert that matters.
and im not going to let the piece of paper ruin my future.
i've had enough regrets.... i dont want more!
so...... lets study
*in the process of turning into mugger*
(somehow, i got a bad feeling that i wont do well for mid year. haix)

this week seems to be a busy week ahead
i've already started my tutoring CIP every friday afternoon
then got 4 hrs of econs tuition this sat. (to make up for the lesson i skipped last sat because of hsk)
and 4P1 CLASS OUTING IS ON THIS SAT!
heard that is steamboat :)
though im still not sure if i can go, but i'll try to go
hope yunfang is going too^^
oh and i think, we got to go tiong bahru for some stupid NE trip this sun too
as a class :)
which means, my weekends are fully packed to the max!
argh
im still thinking of asking my dear out this sat afternoon to watch movie
cant rmb the movie's name but it seems nice! (from the advertisement)
nvm, next time bah

and i think dear is not really happy in her class
but the beginning is always the most difficult stage!
sooner or later, u'll get used to it de :)

omg and i think im starting to struggle abit with sch stuff
keep getting stuck while doing tutorials
and i keep falling asleep for the last 10 mins of lectures
BUT WHEN I DOZE OFF, I STILL HEAR WHAT THE LECTURER IS SAYING
which means i still noe my stuff and content
just that my eyes are closed for that 10 mins? LOL!
omg i think im clever! can listen while sleeping! LOL!
and the most li hai thing is, i even dare to sleep in mr chu's lecture!
for 2 times le, i think?
and the most funny thing is, when i hear some important stuff, i'll open my eyes and write down notes, then sleep again!
LOL OMG LA. i really think im clever :D
and I MUST GET BACK MY FOCUS ASAP!
aim for this week : dont doze off again for any lecture / tutorial anymore XD

had HSK exam ysd at tiong bahru
erm, i think it wasnt as difficult as the sample paper they gave us last time
maybe because we did act cheena and mug for hsk on our way to tiong bahru? LOL
i think the ppl standing near us at mrt will think we're crazy cheena ppl....
we're like discussing abt the qns in a rather loud voice.
LOL!
and we attempted to speak idioms whenever we talk. 4 words-4words.... haha :)
and i think ysd's paper was manageable.
i was damn happy when i saw the compo qn
cos chen zhu ren gae us edrei's model essay on that topic last year :)
the qn was somewhat similar to one of the hcl qns we had for mid-year exam last year
so i survived the written paper and the compo (happily)
BUT my confidence level dropped to zero after finishing the stupid oral
wth la. it sounds so stupid to record ur oral using a tape recorder
and i just anyhow crap like shit.
i dun even noe what the hell im crapping abt la!
one word : D-E-A-D!!!!!!!!
if i cant get my level 11 cert, it means i screwed up my oral real badly. (maybe i will fail oral....)
WTH :(
nvm its already over.

then went to have dinner at tiong bahru plaza
shopped for a while after dinner
got a lot of cheap and nice clothes!
but we cant buy ><
must control my temptations.
then went home at 8.30pm
and ironically, although i said i want to save money, i took a cab home :)
if u noe me well, u will noe that im the type of person who dont like to go home when the sky is dark!
which means, i'll try to reach home by 6+ or latest by 7-8pm if i go home
and if im going home after 8pm, i'll most probably take a cab home unless the place is damn near to my hse. :)
oh shit, i sound like a pampered spoilt brat here.
but its really scary to walk home alone at night lah!
i think the only time i dont feel scared when walking home at night was the time when _____ accompanied me home. ><

oh and dear's starting sch tmr!
which means it will be harder for us to meet le. :(
i got lots and lots to tell her!
but sometimes i cant complain everything to her, cos she wont noe what im talking abt if i keep rambling on and on abt jc stuff -.-
but dear! we must meet during holidays ok!
i miss u lots!
and hope u'll enjoy ur poly life.
we shall jiayou together :D

very long nvr post le
im like burried under piles and piles of hwk everyday :(
still got quiz, tests etc....
im half dead!
but although its tiring and stressful at times, i still enjoy my life pretty much.
and i noe i wont regret my choice ever again.
when u think of the end result, when u compare the two choices and the opp cost, its all worth it :)
i've survived for one term plus already.
jiayou!

BUT...........
i seriously think PW is a pain!
spent so much time on PI when its only a miserable ___% of the overall marks
its a waste of time sometimes.
the amount of time spent could be spent on studying lah! (opp cost quite big leh)
but nvm, we shall do our best for PW
and forget abt it next year :D
somemore, i think my group members are all very cooperative
we can do it de^^

im not in a good mood today
but i noe my dear girlfriend isnt too
i really feel like rushing over to her hse this morning when i saw her msg
i wanted to give her a big hug
and listen to what she has to say
seriously, i dont feel good at all when i noe my dear is upset abt _____
i dunoe if _____ is worth ur tears or not.
but i just want to say, no matter what, i'll be there for u when u need a listening ear :)
CHEER UP DEAR <3

LOL ysd's class lunch was pathetic
seems more like a clique lunch, instead of class lunch
only 7 ppl turned up >.<
then we sat outside mac to gossip!

went to watch the shinjuku incident with xuanny today :)
my first ever nc16 movie. LOL!
the movie was quite nice lah. just that its a bit too bloody.
then towards the end, xuanny was covering her eyes with tissue papers!
LOL! :D

somehow, i think my opp cost is quite big (lol econs -.-)
that means i got to rush hwk tmr cos i slack for the whole of today!
but its ok.
since i hardly meet my dear nowadays.... :)
i got lots to tell her la.
but dunnoe where to start from. >.<