kind of feel nostalgic now
cos we will be graduating soon
in fact, this is the LAST week of school for us :(
a lot of memories from these 4 years
hmm i shall not elaborate too much
save it for nxt week bah, after our official graduation day

and these few weeks, quite a number of ppl pon sch
cos there are no lessons, just mainly doing practice papers in class
im a good girl, im proud to say i didnt pon sch at all!
not even once. which means i go to school everyday :)
anyway i dont see the point of skipping school nowadays
esp when we are left with only a few miserable days together
our official last week as BPians.
left one week before we go our separate ways
to mug for Os, of course.
but we wont see each other everyday after nxt week
so why pon school?
wont it be better to just treasure our last week together?
and no matter how much i hate the canteen food, i shall eat it during recess now
cos after nxt week, i cant eat the food le -.-
and no matter how much i detest ____'s lessons, i shall brainwash myself to enjoy the lessons
sian la! i hate the feeling of separations.
cos every time, ppl will cry and i will get influenced too.
and tears will flow like there's no tomorrow. weird expression, i noe. -.-
last time p6, the sadness wasnt that strong cos we are still immatured.
and btw i still keep in contact with my p6 classmates. :D
then sec 2, i rmb the girls cried like mad. and B.I.P had to even go to a dark corner to cry out loud, cos if ppl see us crying, we will be paiseh. LOL
then this year, guides R.O.D, the sec3s cried. and of course PLC cried too.
the feeling cannot be described la.
its like we are great that we have officially stepped down (so that we can rest now and focus on Os)
but on the other hand, we just dont bear to leave guides. 4years of friendship and bonds.
its not easy to let go.
next up, graduation day next monday. SIAN LA!
i dont want monday to come!
i dont want to graduate!
i dont want october to come!
cant i turn back the clock? LOL

oh and i realised i always finish my english assignment much faster than the rest
take timed practice for example.
the sec4 classes will go to hall for english mock exam.
and i will always finish the stupid paper 30mins-1hour ahead
so i'll be staring and stonning for the rest of the time.
complete waste of time la!
then today, we had english timed prac in class.
did paper 1, composition.
and this time, i finished like 40 mins earlier
then i looked around, only to see ppl still rushing their compo
worse still, regina and xiangqin were still at their first or second paragraphs -.-
so i just stone there for nearly 1 hour
and keep disturbing regina :)
really waste time la!
thats why i hate english timed prac.
cos everytime i will be the one stonning there while everyone else is still busy doing -.-

saw F1 ysd on tv
quite cool leh.
but im stil abit jealous of jos
cos he actually went there to watch F1 live on friday
although friday is only a trial run, but still....
argh nvm.

ok i realised im becoming more and more random nowadays.
in terms of my posts.
but who cares.
no one reads them anyway. >.<
im just talking to myself. LOL

lol so many ppl pon school today
and xiangqin and i had a hard time trying to arrange their worksheets together
we got to help the 4 or 5 of them keep their hwk
LOL
oh and im proud to say i've survived ysd!
been having lessons the whole day la
from morning to 1.30 is school
then after school, we had geog consultation until 3+
then after that, we slack for a while
and then continue with physics consultation till 6
IT WAS TIRING LA!
and i complained to mum abt how tired i am the moment i reached home
LOL
then at night, still got to finish amaths paper 2
which was rather easy la
and revise for geog test!
OMG i think 90% of my brain cells are dead le bah
no wonder i dont seem to absorb anything in class today -.-

today dear xuanny also nvr go school
haix :( i miss the daily morning gossip session we have on the way to school
LOL it feels weird to go to school alone
cos i've gotten used to talking to xuanny every morning
sometimes during weekends, i still feel weird not hearing her voice
LOL thats how close we are xD
and i can never imagine life without her
as what she said that day, no one to gossip with, no one to crap with and no one to share problems with
duh life will be much more boring without xuanny!
LOL a bit mushy.... o.0


anyway i think this pic looks nice
LOL its obvious that i always do stupid things while online
since i've promised myself to quit online games, i have nth to do when im online nowadays
so except for the usual checking of emails and blog hopping,
i'll just search for random pictures >.<

just as what xuanny and storyteller said
it doesnt matter how many friends u have
as long as u have ONE BEST FRIEND, its good enough
im contented :)
i have dear xuanny as my best friend
i have storyteller to talk to whenever i have problems
i have B.I.P to spend quality time with

LOL i think xuanny and i are going to die of laughing now!
just saw a particular post which is funny.
at least that blogger shares the same thoughts as us.
ok i mean majority of us.
in fact, from what i observed, many ppl dont like _____
its just that they dont want to say it out only.
COOL! xD

ok lets just name this person Y.
sometimes i just cant help but pity Y.
its not that im jealous of her.
in fact, i dont. nobody will be so stupid to be jealous of her
cos Y is hated by a lot of ppl!
LOL.
nvm, i should not say anything much here.
later words will spread and its not good.
so ya. THE END!
LOL








OMG LA! so paiseh can.
my name appears on Y's _______ and dear xuanny's pic is posted on that _________ too!
arhhhhhhhhhh dui lian la!

had chem consultation again today
not too bad afterall :)

today ms phua didnt come
so we had a free period for geog
then after stoning for a while, i turned to my right
and saw fiona sleeping happily
so i decided to sleep too LOL
slept for half an hour
then played bingo with wanting, regina and wanxuan
WE ARE LAME, we actually played bingo from number 1 to 100 o.0
so hard to find the numbers la!
lol but we had fun. although i always lose
dont know why, i always lag behind others by a lot de, whenever i play bingo
maybe becos i dont know how to arrange numbers properly?
is there a strategy for bingo? >.<

oh ya XUANNY and i made a promise ysd night!
LOL im looking forward to that day :D

opps Os is less than one month away from now!
sooner or later, we'll be wishing each other "good luck for tmr" on the fateful night of 19 oct


20 oct marks the beginning of our death
and 12 nov marks the end of our death
or will it be the beginning of another worse death?
i dont know >.<

and i just chance upon this random picture
eh quite true bah, i guess?


as seen from the pic, we must NOT accept defeat
so im going to pull up my socks (not literally la-.-)
and mug really hard for Os.

people, JIAYOU!
lets enter the exam hall with confidence
and walk out of the exam hall with smiley faces xD
ADD OIL!!!!

came back from bugis abt l hour ago
was supposed to go there to shop for prom dress with dear xuanny de
but then, in the end, both of us came home empty-handed
sian la. >.<
i actually planned to get everything settled by this month de
so that i can concentrate on Os
i dont want to wait till after Os then go shop for dress
cos it will be too late and too rush by then -.-
haix dont know la.
we may be considering tailor-made dress since storyteller says he can recommend some tailors whom he knows
but then it must not be too ex la
actually, i dont see the point of spending so much money on a prom dress
as in how often can u wear that stupid dress after prom?
and somemore expensive doesnt mean nice what. >.<

nvm, back to main point, i think i shall focus on revision first bah
its officially 1 month left to Os!
im dreading it but yet, looking forward to the end of Os
so ironic.

and my legs are damn pain la!
xuanny and i walked too much today.
in the end, our legs are pain and sore.
LOL somemore, im wearing heels.
ok la, im not so stupid to wear heels for shopping
but the shoes i wore just now is not flat de. got a bit heels de.
no choice mah, i dont have much flat de shoes at home
but nvm, im used to getting sore and painful legs after shopping le
i mean who dont?
shop for very long = legs pain de mah
its common sense. >.<

i think the truncated timetable is weird
cos different classes are dismissed at different time
and on some days, i end up getting dismissed 1 hr later than my other classmates
cos last period is HCL mah.
then the express chinese ppl always purposely come and say
"eh u got chinese lesson arh? bye bye!"
LOL im speechless =X

anyway after chinese lesson ysd, chen zhu ren asked me to go for conference
its only around 5 mins la.
nth much to say too.
but i was quite motivated by what he said.
many ppl are motivated by his words too :)
so he looked at my prelims paper then told me roughly what marks i can get for paper 1 in olvls
cos this time, they mark quite strictly for paper 1 so the marks are not really that high
so he wrote another mark on my paper, the so-called olvl standard de marks la
LOL then he calculated my overall marks
from 75 increase to 80+
LOL then i was wondering whether that is true
how can i get 80+ for HCL olvls?
hmm nvm, i got low self confidence de.
then he said sth that is very motivational
he said "u got potential de. i think u sure get A for olvls de. confirm de lor. just whether its low A or high A. go memorise more hao chi hao ju for compo and u are safe le"
OMG stressed seh. he talk until like im very good like that.
then say my good points (you dian) say until like i sure A1 that type.
LOL i scare i will disappoint him la. >.<
then he asked me for my L1R5.
sian which is super lousy.
then to my surprise, he didnt say anything insulting at all.
he just said "jiayou, u can do it de. dont waste ur points. u can de"
btw dont waste ur points refer to the L1R5 that i screwed up
cos usually, my english and chinese are ok de.
then for maths and science, i will screw them up, resulting in a two-digit L1R5 which reflects badly on my report book. :(
haix dont know la. im only good at languages, told u im not the science-math type of person le lor. =X

AHHH i am more motivated by what chen zhu ren said now.
at least i got praised ok? LOL.
really really hope i wont screw my olvls up.
especially for the stpid double maths and science.
i want an L1R5 which is as low as possible. <12 if possible. :D
nvm, lets all jiayou for the final lap!
its almost time to peak le^^

ok i think i shall end this crappy post with this pic :


DO IT NOW!
lets mug and mug like thats no tomorrow :)

haha i skipped amaths timed prac today
cos i went to chem consultation with ms chow instead
hmm just when i am starting to hate chem and love physics instead,
ms chow makes chem seems a lot easier :D
not bad not bad. lol

lets see...
tmr got geog test and emaths test
hmm dont know whether got phy test mah. >.<
should be quite manageable bah?
emaths test on compound interest.
geog test on industries or tourism.
i think i will choose industries bah?
then just read through tourism.
but human geog also nth much to memorise de lor.
just look at the headings/points then elaborate on ur own :)
thats why i love human geog. xD

about 1 more month to the big Os.
haix very scared leh!
but at the same time, im looking forward to the end of it
as in always count down to Os very sickening de
might as well faster come then faster end.
LOL!
lets see. after Os, will be prom night at the ulu raffles town club.
then after that it will be the HSK SHANGHAI TRIP le^^
YAY! im really looking forward to that 2 weeks in shanghai.
i mean we will be sort of studying in the shanghai fudan university leh!
such a rare opportunity, isnt it?
but my only worry is that later their standard too high for me le. -.-
cos fudan university is supposed to be the third best university in china?
or what le, aiya i cant rmb le.
then plus its university CHINA students.
so u can imagine how good their chinese is.
omg later my chinese standard will be like pri sch standard to them. >.<
ok my chinese isnt that bad la. just exaggerate a little.


i rmb having a really fun conversation with the storyteller one day
abt those "potatoes" whom we hate alot , or rather look down on
in case u dont know, "potatoes" are ppl who are chinese but they hate chinese and dont speak chinese
to us, its like WTH la.
how can u regard urself as a chinese if u cant even speak ur own mother tongue well.
and some ppl just learn chinese for the sake of learning. cos got exams mah
then after exams, esp after chinese olvl, they just forget everything
like what chen zhu ren said, some ppl dont even read or write chinese anymore after secondary school
WTH LA.
seriously, we really look down on these "potatoes"
and sometimes, i wonder how some of them can actually manage to get a distinction for olvls.
surprising. and as what storyteller said, they dont deserve their As at all!
come on, someone who dont respect chinese dont deserve to get an A for chinese.
speaking of this, i really feel irritated when xuanny told me she got a B3 for olvl chinese on the day when the results are released
i mean hey, her chinese isnt bad at all ok?
at least its way above that standard of those "potatoes" who got As for their chinese, surprisingly.
ironic, isnt it?
seriously, i still think dear xuanny doesnt deserve a bloody B3 at all! :(
ok nvm, its not that i think my chinese is very good la
it isnt that good, in fact.
but at least i learn chinese because i LOVE chinese ok?
dont know why, i've a passion for chinese since P1 when i always score 100/100 for every chinese exam without fail.
LOL that was years ago.
but as least im proud to say that i learn chinese because i love chinese, not because i have to study chinese.
thats why im really looking forward to the hsk scholarship trip.
cos in shanghai, there wont be any "potatoes", right?
no la, most importantly, its because i want to experience the real chinese culture over there, in china.
i mean ppl will think u are crazy if u start reading chim chinese novels and start speaking chim chinese words, in singapore.
admit it, its a fact. everyone knows it.
thats why i always prefer to read my novels at home.
cos at home, nobody is going to say im crazy.
in public, ppl will go "u crazy arh? read chinese books for what? olvls over le"
its true. im serious. this is exactly what i heard last time.
and i just gave that stupid person a -.-" face before replying "eh i always read chinese books de cos i like to read them"
it shut that person up, completely.
what makes u think we can only read english books?
u mean olvls over le then dont need to touch chinese at all le la
irritating -.-
nvm i think nobody will actually bother to read what i write here.
im just crapping. >.<

haha i love human geog so much!
cos i dint study for the geog test on tuesday but still got a reasonable mark :D
hmm but i think the qns are a bit weird in the way that the answers cant really be found from the textbook
its more like elaborating on ur own. in other words, crap. LOL
it seems that my physical geog is alway the one that pull down my geog marks
cant help it. im not good at memorising things >.<

oh and ysd morning when i switched on my hp,
the whole hp vibrated for more than 1 min la!
cos i got like 7 smses in a row -.-
all from friday night de. cos i switched off my hp after 10pm everyday mah.
i was wondering why my hp so weird de, keep vibrating.
then i realised there are lots of un-read smses
LOL

im starting to regret lying on friday
cos i've been having flu since thursday then my voice sounds weird
so on friday, ms lee asked me to read out my essay in class
then i dont feel like reading it cos i think my voice will sound really weird if i were to read aloud
so regina, being the "good" friend, told ms lee that i have a sore throat
ya so i didnt have to read the essay out :)
then xiangqin and yunfang looked towards my direction
cos they knew i dont have a sore throat LOL
but ms lee didnt suspect anything cos i just kept quiet for the rest of the class
hmm i got "sore throat" mah, so cant talk. LOL >.<

then in the end, i woke up ysd with a sore throat. -.-
omg la! so qiao.
was a bit sian diao la.
and i think my voice sounds even more weird now.
with flu and sore throat. haix.

the Large Hadron Collider tunnel

did i mention abt what roy ng told us during lit lesson on wed?
ok no, i didnt. =X
he told us that apparently, some scientist believe that the Large Hadron Collider (LHC) will result in some sort of a blackhole, which will then produce strong magnetic field that can suck the whole Earth into it. in other words, the end of the world. -.-
so they believe that the world is going to end on 10 Sept at 3pm in the afternoon.
its funny la. to see ppl getting so paranoid abt it.
mind u, two men even filed a lawsuit in Hawaii in an attempt to halt the LHC due to their concerns abt the black hole. LOL!

so did we die?
no, we survived.
when he told us abt this, the boys just went "yay"
LOL cos if the world is going to end, we wont need to take olvls.
hmm but i dont want to die!
i still have lots of things not accomplished yet.
and on wed, i totally forgot abt the LHC thing after school.
so at 3pm, i was happily eating subway cookies at home, while watching tv.
lol then i only realised it on wed night.
ya after we survived the impacts of LHC. -.-

actually to be frank, i think all these assumptions that the world is going to end and blah blah blah are just RUBBISH!
i mean how can u predict when u are going to die.
but with global warming nowadays, i think the world is changing rather rapidly.
or maybe more scary.
the ice caps are melting, the sea levels are rising, low coastal areas are believed to be submerged under water after a few years, more and more natural disasters ..... etc....
scary, isnt it?
but who exactly cause all these to happen?
ironically, its we human beings.
why cant ppl just care more abt the environment?
rather than talking crap abt the day when the world is going to end.
easier said than done. -.-

nvm, this is getting more like a geog essay now.
hmm but i hardly post such things right?
i mean i dont usually post abt such "chim" issues.
ok although its not exactly very chim. o.0

had a really hard time trying to stay awake in school today
i am having flu and somehow i just feel sleepy thoughout the lessons
cant be the medicine, cos i didnt take it this morning
then for the first two periods, fiona and i were trying really hard to keep our eyes open
but dont know why, after recess, i got all my energy back! :D
can stay focus throughout the other lessons after that.
lol. went to lot 1 to have lunch just now
with banana. :) very long nvr eat lunch with her le
last time lower sec, esp sec2 that time, i rmb we were like eating fast food almost everyday
sth like monday mac, wed ljs, thurs food court and fri kfc.
no tues. cos we used to have guides meeting every tues. >.<
then starting frm last yr, we started to skip lunch le.
ok or is it just me?
nvm so i only pei them go lot 1 eat lunch occasionally.
let alone eat fastfood. hmm when's the last time i ate fastfood? cant rmb. o.0
haix now leh?
the routine is go straight home after sch everyday.
its really rare that i go for lunch at lot 1 nowadays
haix life is getting really boring.
but no choice. 39 more days to Olvls. what to do?

nvm, with determination and hard work, i believe we can all do well de.
jiayou ppl!
i will end my post with a 'jiayou' everytime :D
lol but i guesss i wont be online that often le.
at most its only just come online check email and blog hop a bit
then switch off com and study.
nvm, after olvls, we can all relax le.
and IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO MY SHANGHAI TRIP!
but the tcher lost my hsk cert :(
so sad la. i want my cert back!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how ironic. since when did ppl go for a scholarship programme without a cert.
ok if nxt time ppl ask for my cert, i shall say the tcher lost it.
LOL!


anyway SHE is releasing new album soon.
i want the album!
someone buy for me. lol.
i still rmb wanting they all bought me Ang 5.0 for my birthday this year.
was really caught by surprise when i saw the album. :D

somehow i lost the motivation to study
after getting stuck at some qns >.<
i hate it when i stare at the qn for so long but still couldnt solve it
but i wont give up.
i shall prove to others that i can do it de.

really feel paiseh and disappointed at my horrible prelims results
and i totally dont know how to reply when ms phua asked me what happened just now
ya, i really feel that i've let the ppl who care for me down
was a bit disappointed after ms phua asked me tat qn
disappointed in myself.
for letting her down.
for letting everyone else down.
but producing such lousy results when they have high expectations of me
im sorry!

anyway i WONT let history repeat itself
i WONT let the same thing happen again
when i receive my olvl results nxt yr, i promise u will not see any Cs on my report slip
thats what i hope.
but storyteller told me last night that
its not enough to just hope. u have to work hard and strive for it.
yea i promise i will start working harder to achieve my goals
i wont let anyone down again this time round.
i noe i can de.
next year, i will make everyone proud of me.
my family, my friends, everyone....
JIAYOU!

and i think i feel like going to NP more now.
rather than going to jc.
i dont know?
i just feel that if i go to a jc, im taking a big risk
cos im not the type who study and will automatically produce good results
im really an average student, really.
im not as clever as ppl think i am. >.<
so what if i fail my exams in jc and get retained.
what if i flunk my Alevels and couldnt qualify for university?
i dont know la. just dont feel secured if i go jc
im not saying poly is easier la
but if i go poly, i'll be studying the course that i like, which im interested in
so i will find studying easier, right?
cos im really not the maths-science person. i hate doing maths and science actually.
no wonder my results are horrible -.-
i cant deny that i have doubts abt poly
im worried that i cant go to university eventually since ppl always said poly graduates have to work extra harder to qualify for university
but dear xuanny, jos and storyteller all said the same thing when i told them this
they said if u are studying sth that u like, u will find passion in it.
then automatically u will do well de. so going to uni wont be a huge problem.
maybe its right?
i mean its RARE that jos can actually say sth that sensible ok?
to me, i think he always crap a lot.
so ya i was quite surprised when i saw his sms that day.

hmm but now. the problem is family expectations.
i noe my parents and relatives all pinning high hopes on me.
i noe they would prefer me to go to a jc.
if better, be like my other cousins, 6 pointers and qualify for a good jc.
i noe. i noe their expectations are high
i noe they want me to do well
but im really scare i will let them down again. I DONT WANT TO DISAPPOINT THEM!!!!
i'll find one day to talk abt it with them.
and ask for their opinions.
afterall, going to a poly is not as bad as what ppl think.
i believe if i have the passion, i can do well.
thats why i think i wont cope well in jc, cos i really dont like those maths and science and what have you....
even if i go jc, i will take the arts stream.
i've already decided what subjects to take le.
but seriously, i still prefer poly. >.<
nvm. i hope i can make up my mind soon.

had a really really fun time last night
cos xuanny and i were smsing each other abt __________
OMG cant believe i can be that mean la!
as in i said a lot of mean things abt _________ to xuanny
LOL =D
this shows that i can be very mean if i want to :)
haha and ________ had made me unleash my potential
haix tmr school starts le. that means less time to play and relax
and i think nowadays going to school is a bit sian
everyday go sch then morning assembly, then stay in class do papers and more papers, then recess, then papers again, then bell ring, and finally its home sweet home...
life is getting more mundane now. :(
really hope i can reach my peak soon.
soon... i mean
JIAYOU! xD

yay like finally... my com is fixed :)
ok i shall post abt my super fun wed outing with dear xuanny and storyteller
so the 3 of us met at 10am
lol xuanny was complaining abt how early we meet cos sakura only opens at 12pm
reached science centre at around 11am.
we went to the one at science centre btw.
so walked walked abit then slack around
waited till its 12pm
lol then we stayed at sakura till 2pm. 2 hrs!
ok but we didnt eat for 2hrs la. just sat down and slacked awhile after eating.
then took bus 66 (or is it 67) to bukit timah plaza to play pool!
didnt noe how to play so the two of them taught me
ITS FUN LA! lol no wonder xuanny got addicted now.
ok its really fun, just that i always missed the ball
ya la, i got poor aiming skills de. -.-

and xuanny is getting excited abt buying a pool table
lol after olvls, we shall play pool till we sian!
HAHA =D