i may seem cheerful and carefree to some of my friends
but that doesnt mean im a happy person
its just that i dont like to share my troubles with others
becos i will get really really emo if i were to talk to them abt all my unhappiness
and also, i dont want them to be worried
im just trying to be strong, to be normal and look happy
but actually, im not. >.<
and sometimes i just keep everything to myself until its too much a burden
and then i'll just break down sometimes at night
每当夜深人静时, 总会一个人胡思乱想, 然后把自己封闭起来, 想着想着就会不知不觉地觉得自己其实很孤单
sometimes i just wish there is someone beside me everytime i feel like breaking down
but luckily, i have dear xuanny and storyteller with me
i noe sometimes i'll just sms weird sms when im emo
and i'll just spam abt all my unhappiness
i noe sometimes its hard to reply such smses
but im glad that dear xuanny always find it a point to reply my weird sms
and sometimes talking to storyteller do helps
i mean he can say a lot of profound words which make a lot of sense
and it can really cheer u up sometimes

aiya dunnoe why, i just feel abit sentimental now
but im just glad that whenever i have problems, there is always someone there who is willing to be my listening ears
and i just realised boys can make good listeners too
i mean last time i used to talk abt all my unhappiness with my gor
and now im kind of used to sharing them with storyteller
but no matter what, xuanny is still on the top of my list!
u noe, its really hard to find a friend who shares the same thoughts as u and who is able to cheer u up when u are unhappy
and im glad that i've found them.
THANKS, XUANNY!
u've always been a wonderful bf to me
and i really hope our friendship will last
even after we've graduated from bp and had gone our separate ways :)

oh ya and xuanny, im not at all jealous abt u two-timing at the same time
becos i noe u treat us differently
LOL bf and dear got double meaning de :D

ok i guess i shall stop being emo now
anyway got back emaths paper1, eng paper2, geog paper2 and ss today
on the whole, i guess the results are not very satisfactory bah
cos didnt reach my target :(
but im glad that i didnt really screw up my human geog as much as i thought i did
seriously, how can u expect a good grade when u leave the whole of the evaluation qn worth 8 marks blank? ya poor time management, i noe. -.-
im just lucky that i did relatively well for the first qn, was quite surprised when i saw my marks.
21/25 for question 1. i guess it was one of the few good attempts bah?
cos i dont really score very well for geog de. >.<
so heng arh, question 1 helps me in maintaining a decent grade for human geog
since i screwed up question 2 totally, with the whole 8 marks gone.
and some little errors here and there
cant blame me what, no time to finish so i just literally rush through question 2
its already lucky that i didnt get a single digit for that qn

if not for the poor time management this time, i guess i could have done much much better for prelims. its really demoralising to see terrible results when u noe that u can actually do much better than it, if not for the careless mistakes and poor time management. :/