i feel like dropping out from the Student Leadership Camp from 5-8june :(
there's this overnight trekking on 5 june.
must walk all the way from PJC to the campsite at Lim Chu Kang!
about 15km. !!!!
OMG! and somemore, we have to carry our super heavy backpack with us all the way!
yea, i hope i wont drop dead along the way ><
walking 15 km at night is already ...........
walking + carry the ultra heavy backpack (with 1.5litre bottle filled completely with water) is like hell :(
and worse is, we have to walk past a cemetery on our way, i think?
OMG! freaking scary!
and the very very very very very (x10000times) scary height element games (flying fox etc...) and the very very very very very (x10000times) scary kayaking. (i dunoe how to swim! -.-) maybe, i should really considering pon-ing the camp T_T

its sounds so much like OBS
but the thing is, i think im way too fortunate during OBS last time
cos my group didnt have the chance to play the height element games (THANK GOD!)
and while most ppl are kayaking, ours is the small boat(or whatever its called. i forgot le) with 8 ppl de, then got steering wheel de. so its much more stable and wont capsize so easily.
thats why my group dont have capsize drills. (LUCKY!)
yea, see. i survived OBS happily because i successfully escaped from all those activities tat i seriously have a phobia in. (i.e. height and water!)
and im serious.
im really scared of height and water.
phobia for height is normal la. (at least for girls)
but phobia for water LOL. i dunoe why. but im scared of water since young (as in swimming pools, sea etc. those type of water la!) last time i wanted to learn swimming de. but i ran away the moment i stepped into the swimming pool! LOL ><

someone, tell me how im going to survive this year's leadership training camp!
there's no way i can escape from height + water this time round -.-
arghhhh! kill me bah.....

but on a happier note, my camp group members are quite fun to talk to :)
and im in the same group with HUILIN! (cos same cca mah)
ok thats the only happy thing that is worth to be mentioned.

haix, but i'll just treat the camp as a challenge bah
if i can survive this camp (i.e. overcome my phobia), there'll be nth much to be afraid of in the future :)
but if i cant, yea, u'll see me crying during the camp. (maybe i'll be standing on the pole, dunoe how many storeys above ground level, and crying cos i dun dare to jump down. hmm or worse, maybe i wont even dare to climb up that pole)

ok i shall stop imaging the worse now.
can someone pls stop the time NOW?
so that 5 june wont come so early?
seriously, i need time for mental preparation. ><
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh and before i forget, my gp tcher indirectly said im cheenah during gp lesson that day! -.-
whats wrong with speaking chinese all the time?
whats wrong with reading chinese newspapers/books/magazines?
whats wrong with listening to chinese songs?
so what if i dun like to read english stuff?
hello!
although i admit im cheenah -.-
but not to the very extreme ok!
i still speak english when there's a need to
i still read english newspapers when there's a need to

its because of all those naive ppl who hate chinese to the core, that chinese is dying out
ysd, serene was like saying, chinese is our roots, our culture.
why must we abandon chinese, just because english is the global language of communication?
how can u call urself a chinese when u suck at the language?
*high five, serene!* LOL!

i noe i sound rather mean here.
but my point is, im not extremely cheenah ok!
i can be bilingual, if i want to
i can switch to speaking in english, if i want to
but its just that, i find it easier to communicate in chinese. ><
wth.
one more time someone claim that im cheenah, i swear i'll start reciting tang poems in front of u! (LOL)

i dont mind if u say it in a joking manner
but i'll get offended if u mean it in a serious manner -.-