got back most of my papers, except econs
hmm i should say.... the results are more or less what i've expected myself to get
judging at how unprepared i was during the MYE period
judging at how i made lots of stupid careless mistakes when i've already written the correct answer somewhere on my script (arh, forget it, u wont know what im talking abt unless u look at my pathetic script -.- )
yea, so im feeling neutral right now
maybe a little disappointed for GP.
CT period today was scary
cos whatever ms chan said was like, exactly what we're thinking/doing
that makes my guilty level rise even higher -.-
but i'll work harder for the rest of this term, for promos!
hope that by then, my results can improve by at least one grade. ><
seriously, when i look back, o level is CHICKEN FEET la! (compared to now....)

o level, if u nvr study, can still get a decent grade
but now, even if u study, the results also like ______
haix the difference is really big lor :(
and just when i thought im already hardworking enough as compared to some other ppl, what ms chan said today brings me back to reality again
according to her, im LAZY!
she didnt pin point names la.
she just list out those characteristics that belongs to a lazy person, or something like that
"when u open ur TYS and realise a lot of qns look alien to u, u freak out and start convincing yourself not to scare yourself further, and so u close the TYS and forget abt it"
"when u reach home, bathe and finish ur dinner, u study for abt 1-2 hours every night"
"what did u all do during free periods? sit down and talk? or study?"
etc etc......
she said a lot of things which i can totally relate to!
cos there's what i do most of the time! (unfortunately)
ya so, thats lazy! :(
which means i must study a lot more in order to be hardworking -.-
sooner or later, i'll just turn into a nerd la! :(
but nvm, i'll rather suffer now than suffer in the future
the opp cost of retaining/not scoring well for Alevel is really very big!
she did the calculation at the start of the year before. the sums are scary, really!

so i should not live in my own fantasy world anymore
sadly, im not as hardworking as i thought i was :(
its time to return back to reality. although its cruel and stressul ><
work extra extra hard for promos!
no more time to play anymore.
the opp cost of slacking for 1 hour is already very big
i dont want to fall extra hard in order to learn my lesson!
i WILL do well for promos.
and im working towards that goal.
shall go mug at the library with B.I.P (esp HUILIN!) whenever its possible
must study with friends who will motivate u to study :)
JIAYOU^^

PW IS STRESSFUL TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!